Reminder

Today, when reflection came, I was about to lie on my table and get a nice nap until i saw the reflection paper. I was like WOAHH, and I totally didn’t want to sleep anymore lol. I got reminded again, about the ‘wineskin’ theory I have learnt. Haha Pastor Jeff has been repeating this word again and again over the past services. Really amused me on how God can talk to me. I mean, haha how often does God speak to you through dumb reflections YUP soo.. new wineskins have to be used in order to contain new wine !! Well I just learnt that scientifically it’s because of the gases the new wine produces and if the wineskin is old, it will literally burst, ruining both the wine and wineskin. Well it’s just about correcting your past years mistakes, but also adapting yourself to the new environment you’re gona be in. no matter where u still have to serve God with all your best yeah ! Haha I’m so ashamed of myself, as I have not planned well on how and what ways I’m gona know my new ppl. Definitely meeting them once or twice a week isn’t enuf, haha pray that God will really help me to connect with them and that both sides will be open with one another.

Colour test



Followed keith to go try it out at www.colorgenicstest.com and i found mine really accurate ! here goes:

You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition – but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point – like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.

You are lazy – you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you’ll have to make the best of things as they are.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer – MOVE!

Haha gotta change myself thru this

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2009.

Haha i was just looking back at the previous ‘entries’ i wrote in my QT book throughout the year. HAHA i seemed so err.. childish? Hmm i wrote down many of the ‘big’ things that happened to me this year. haha this includes scoldings, problems and others. Haha but really want to take this time to really thank those people who actually bothered to scold me HAHA. and of course continuing to bring me up even though i disappoint at many times. Yup, I’d like to thank ZJ and keith for their continuous support and and all those plans, goals, targets that they tried so hard to come up with to get us going. Another thing i got from reading my QT book was that disappointment. Ah, how much more i could have done with this year, if only i knew of the solutions to all those problems, and how much, have i disappointed God, as i did myself, and the people around me. Well i guess these are how experiences are gained eh? Haha but I’m still excited about 2010 and how God is gonna use me big timeeee. The pastors and the leaders say that 2010 is gonna be when we start work, for 2009 was a year of preparation. But well, ultimately it’s still up to the church to do the job !! :D ‘For Greater things have yet to come, and Greater things are still to be done.’ yupppp mistakes can’t b avoided so… LOOKIN FORWARD to making even MORE mistakes, recovering from it FASTER, MUCH FASTER, AND learn even moreee from these MORE mistakes Ah, really excited on how much more God is going to use us than the previous batch really thank the previous batch of Joel and ZJ for building us up and their hopes and trusts in us, even though we do disappoint. HAHA yess and i’m really gonna try starting the year off with some stupid but interesting term i came up with which isss….. CHEAH. COURAGE, HUMILITY, ENCOURAGEMNT, APPRECIATION and HEART for God, people and the great commission. Haha once these things are in place, there’s no stopping us mannn! yay and lastly wanna thank ZJ for the QT book idea which was around before mid year this year. REALLY REALLY useful, u guys shuld try it

Level Up

Courage, humility, ability to deploy one’s own and other’s talents and spiritual gifts, encouragment and appreciation for others. I was reminded and learnt of all these things in the camp Courage to answer and do God’s calling without hesitation. Humility to take a step back and reflect all glory back to God. Also to ultilize my own gifts and talents. And also to help discover, develop and deploy other’s talents in order for the group/church to be whole, for God gave different gifts and talents to everyone in order to develop a complete and whole church. Haha and yes! To always remember to encourage people even in the ‘cui’/’sian’ times. And to appreciate people for what they have done, especially leaders, for all they have sacrificed and done loads Yup and really thank xanthe for her words and the COMPLETELY MEMORIALBE letter thing too really look forward to receiving the letter in 2 years time and already out-doing what i wrote in that letter

GC

GC was one of the greatest experience i ever had with God. It shown me so much I have never thought of, and it taught me many things. I went there with a weak and lousy prayer, asking God to answer these two main questions i had for Him in GC. And after a little thought about this, I’m so happy that God even bothered with such a weak prayer of mine and even spoke to me so clearly and answered these two questions I had. And yeah I wasn’t even supposed to go till before last week =p really thank God for (without any form of begging) my father letting me go for this GC. Heh but yeah, some may think, ‘what can 4 days out of the country do to a person?’ Well, u may neverrr know I won’t share everything i learnt and gained here, but i will try as much as i can

I’ll start off with the second night there was a ‘leaders appreciation night’ and pastor moses reminded the church of  how important the leaders of the church are, how much they give to the kingdom of God and how much they had sacrificed for God and us. Yes, they did it with selflessness and love. And that they often face problems and hard situations that they had to pray so much to get out of them. ‘Honour and love your leaders, for they have done much for you, and for our one and only God.’ He also shared something that touched him and made him so happy, about getting a phone call from a UL in his church during an afternoon. He shared to us that knowing that it’s a UL he expects it to be bad news. But he picked up the call and the UL told him that he and the some other ULs were praying for the leaders of the church and he asked Pastor moses what he could pray for him. Small things like this do affect people’s hearts. The question is, do our hearts have the spirit of selflessness and my favourite SJI motto ‘men for others’? Yes, I have learnt to love and appreciate my leaders so much more. To ZJ, Keith, Xanthe and Daniel, I love you. Haha after that, pastor moses asked us to pray for our pastors that were there, then me and desmond went to find and lay hands on pastor jeff When we were praying, pastor moses cried and then he told us that leaders do face a time when they are weak with the holy spirit and there are people who criticises their leaders even in this period of time. They expect much from their leaders yet they do not encourage. Yes I am sorry too, to the leaders I have done this to before.

Haha after thatttt the teaching was none other thann PASTOR JEFF His teaching was super inspirational and kept me going with his jokes and funny examples. The worship after that was when my first main question was answered. So many things were in line; the teachings, the examples and the explanations from the pastors. I cant say what the question was but haha i can say how childishly i asked God for my answer. Okay okay we were worshipping right then i asked God to play With everything or From the inside out, if it came out, i would take his answer as a yes. HAHA guess what! WITH EVERYTHING CAME OUT. Haha and mind you they only played one hillsong song during the past two days before this sermon. Heh i wonder whether God is also childish sometimes. K moving on…

On the third night, they showed a video consisting of a song and true stories. One true story goes on about this believer following thousands of people to this place called River Ganges where people believed the Goddess of Ganges resided. The people had to travel by trains, buses and long walks. Almost a day’s work just to get to that polluted river. He was amazed by the number of people who actually believed in this ‘Goddess’, and saw how many of these people needed hope, needed light, needed strength, and most importantly, needed God. Then, he saw this woman crying by the banks of the river. He went up to ask the woman why she was so sad. The woman revealed that her husband was sick and couldn’t work, and she couldn’t earn enuf to both support themselves and pay for the husband’s medical fee. Thus she threw her one and only, six month year old son into the river. The believer was shocked by what she said, and after a while, he began to preach the word of God to her, telling her how Jesus died for our sins. The woman looked him in the eyes for a while and said, ‘I have never heard about the man Jesus dying for anything for us. Why didn’t you come 30 minutes earlier? Why didn’t you come before i threw my son into the river?’

I was deeply reminded of the great commission by this story. 

As you can see, 33% of the world have already been saved (taking that they don’t backslide or anything) and there are 6.8 billion people in the world. That’s like 4.53 billion people in the world that still needs to be saved. Thinking logically, if every single Christian and Catholics can bring two people to get to know Christ, the Great Commission is fulfilled. Sounds easy doesn’t it? Haha but, the question is, why isn’t it already being done? This really hit me hard. There’s still so many things that I haven’t considered. My whole family isn’t even saved yet. I’m able to save people from SJI, yet I can’t save my own family. Sounds ironic doesn’t it ?

Well last thing I gained from God was a vision of the whole SJI kneeling down in front of a stage worshipping God. Then He also reminded me of the ‘wineskin’ part which was in the earlier teaching. ‘If the wineskin is bad, even the best wine poured into it would turn bad.’ He told me that the main thing that he wants to see, was like the vision he showed me, to be so close to God that we would be able to hear every calling from Him. I’m sure He would love to see a large number of us in the church, but like the wineskin, we have to be of good quality, to be close to God, in order to take in more wine, take in more souls. He reminded me how much more important quality is above quantity, how much more closeness to Him is more than a bunch of people of weak relationships with Him.

Haha well that’s the end of my full marks essay. And Keith if you’re reading this, this far exceeds your 500 word essay Yup please comment peeps !

‘For greater things have yet to come,

and greater things are still to be done,

in this city.’ – God of this city by Chris Tomlin

‘For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.’ Isaiah 43:19

1+3

Really really really really thank god for the 1+3. It may not mean much to many ppl but I really wanna thank God for this second chance in SJI. WILL work harder next time lol. And for H2O, I really got to see how much CD1’s peeps want this to succeed, and everyone has really changed so much ! Especially Joel, who has really shown me what a 180 degrees turn look like. Thank God for all these people, even to those who had shown even a slight amount of courage to step up and draw people closer to the ‘0′ convert mark. Praise God for SO MUCH he has done in this mere 3 weeks. God will not stop this change, for we are bringing him praise and glory. Ok ok and may God bless this saturday with his ultimate power ! :D

Victory 15

This is, of course, only the starting point. I really got to see what teamwork can do. Hmm, the thing i learnt most is how important the leader is, and he is the symbol the group follows. Like if the leader slacks, the group will too. We didn’t hit the target we wanted, but the main thing is that we saw what we are capable of doing. Sportsmen or not, having the ‘must win’ attitude or not, it is accomplishable. Don’t we all want to serve Him and ‘put a smile on that face’? For me, I’ll change that ‘must win’ attitude to a ’sure win’ with God. Yes of course it sounds better, that’s because of the amplification God does on what you are already capable of doing. Well, in simple terms, why be arrogant and ‘must win’ when u can ’sure win’? Hope, you guys haven’t given up your fighting spirit ! We still got much more to do.

OBS

God I’m scared. Scared that I will lose it, make mistakes there. But please bless me and remind me to talk to you everyday when I’m there. And please remind me of You whenever I’m in a bad situation ! Remind me of  ‘What Would Jesus Do?’ 5 whole days. How many lives can I change and impact during that period? How many of them can I bring closer to you?  This will only be a joyful experience if You are there with me.

Why on earth am I in CD 1? It is to bring you praise and glory.

Are you wobbly?

People might criticise, make fun or make it seem stupid. And if we are to fall to these circumstances, all will be lost. A firm stand is needed, to drive these things away. This has got nothing to do with our knowledge about Him or whatsoever. So what if we know all the things that can be known in the church, it all comes down to faith. If one doesn’t believe, how is he going to stand up for it. Different masks, worn in front of different people, and sometimes the ‘change’ we always talk about actually turns out to be just painting another colour on the masks themselves, I’m sick of it. Even though it’s fun having different personailities sometimes, it will wear you out, as it did for me. Here’s a cope from ZJ – And it has always been said, “what hurts most is when others never knew you were Christian till you told them you were.” -Several Leaders. So how can people see what we are truly like if we don’t take off those masks that cover our faces. Can the masks make a firm stand? Can words of influence truly come out of the masks’ mouth? And most importantly, will people believe it.