1+3

Really really really really thank god for the 1+3. It may not mean much to many ppl but I really wanna thank God for this second chance in SJI. WILL work harder next time lol. And for H2O, I really got to see how much CD1’s peeps want this to succeed, and everyone has really changed so much ! Especially Joel, who has really shown me what a 180 degrees turn look like. Thank God for all these people, even to those who had shown even a slight amount of courage to step up and draw people closer to the ‘0′ convert mark. Praise God for SO MUCH he has done in this mere 3 weeks. God will not stop this change, for we are bringing him praise and glory. Ok ok and may God bless this saturday with his ultimate power ! :D

Victory 15

This is, of course, only the starting point. I really got to see what teamwork can do. Hmm, the thing i learnt most is how important the leader is, and he is the symbol the group follows. Like if the leader slacks, the group will too. We didn’t hit the target we wanted, but the main thing is that we saw what we are capable of doing. Sportsmen or not, having the ‘must win’ attitude or not, it is accomplishable. Don’t we all want to serve Him and ‘put a smile on that face’? For me, I’ll change that ‘must win’ attitude to a ’sure win’ with God. Yes of course it sounds better, that’s because of the amplification God does on what you are already capable of doing. Well, in simple terms, why be arrogant and ‘must win’ when u can ’sure win’? Hope, you guys haven’t given up your fighting spirit ! We still got much more to do.

OBS

God I’m scared. Scared that I will lose it, make mistakes there. But please bless me and remind me to talk to you everyday when I’m there. And please remind me of You whenever I’m in a bad situation ! Remind me of  ‘What Would Jesus Do?’ 5 whole days. How many lives can I change and impact during that period? How many of them can I bring closer to you?  This will only be a joyful experience if You are there with me.

Why on earth am I in CD 1? It is to bring you praise and glory.

Are you wobbly?

People might criticise, make fun or make it seem stupid. And if we are to fall to these circumstances, all will be lost. A firm stand is needed, to drive these things away. This has got nothing to do with our knowledge about Him or whatsoever. So what if we know all the things that can be known in the church, it all comes down to faith. If one doesn’t believe, how is he going to stand up for it. Different masks, worn in front of different people, and sometimes the ‘change’ we always talk about actually turns out to be just painting another colour on the masks themselves, I’m sick of it. Even though it’s fun having different personailities sometimes, it will wear you out, as it did for me. Here’s a cope from ZJ – And it has always been said, “what hurts most is when others never knew you were Christian till you told them you were.” -Several Leaders. So how can people see what we are truly like if we don’t take off those masks that cover our faces. Can the masks make a firm stand? Can words of influence truly come out of the masks’ mouth? And most importantly, will people believe it.

It’s worth it.

Things have been progressing quite smoothly and slowly these days. I have been starting to put my trust in my leaders and people. There had been disappointments, but most of them were things i never thought would have happened. At first, I doubted. But i realised that if you doubt, you won’t be able to set any things right. The right mindset and heart is needed if anything is going to change. Faith, in both God and his people. His people may disappoint, but He himself never does. I have learnt that faith and trust pays off over time. If people know that you don’t have faith in them, why would they even bother trying. I have also learnt that when people put their faith in you, don’t do it when it is to not disappoint them, because that never works. Do it because you sincerely want to. Don’t go with a heart of hesitation, go with a full one. And putting faith in others without God’s help can also be called a sure-lose gamble.

Revival

It’s time for my spirit to run wild again. Unlike before, now it’s on the right track.

We are unstoppable.

Has the camp really made everyone unstoppable? I certainly pray and hope so. The story of people forgetting their visions, goals and promises they made with God after the camps scared me. I certainly don’t want this to happen to me. How many more times must God touch you until you’re satisfied? Isn’t it better to be now, then tomorrow?

I can say God has touched me much in this camp. I was literally blind before the camp. I couldn’t see how God has been trying to talk and connect with me. I’ve been focusing so much on the problems that I didn’t even think of the solutions properly. Solution = God. Ironic, I call myself a man for God, but i haven’t been putting him in the centre of whatever situations. God smacked me hard in the face during camp. During the challenge, I saw the determination the everyone’s eyes, willing to push themselves till the end. I just pray that this determination will stay on, for it’s the days ahead of camp that matters. That we will live as men, the ones who lead, and we will be the ones, pushing not with our one hundred percent, but with our lives. It’s not about the numbers anymore, but it’s about how I am going to live my live for Him.

In every single little action we perform, we are either lifting or bringing down His name. I have to learn to make unpopular decisions, tearing down my walls, taking away my own pride. I need the courage to make these unpopular decisions when needed. This applies to my group too. I have to put myself in front of them, with a mirror in front of me, making sure I see more of myself than them. And making sure I change myself before changing them.

I’m really happy on how God changed my heart during this camp, from the inside out. Why think of so many things that stress me out when God is all I need? Haha I feel that God has really spoken to me through these verses during camp. Acts 5:38-39 (go read it yourselves =p) I want to maintain this attitude and love towards Him. With God, anything is possible.

So simple.

Ok. This is how the plans go. Plan 1 is to make sure that plan 2 works, and plan 2 is to make sure that plan 3 works and plan 3 is to make sure that plan 4 works…… AND plan 98 is to make sure that plan 99 works anddd plan 99 iss.. ’serving God.’ Ironic right? We keep making things seem so difficult when its actually just one single plan and one single goal. So simple, but we make it seem so hard that we can’t be bothered to do it. God is there, always there, it’s just that men just don’t see it sometimes.

Eat, slack and sleep?

Yes ! the long awaited ‘MYE-over day’ is OVER !! Haha finally able to breathe again. Well, but all things have been cleared though… There are still so many things at hand! Camp, Ess, CG etc. I feel really worn out. Yes, I have been concentrating on how to help others and stuff, while not on myself and my relationship with God. It’s like when I concentrate on Chemistry, my Physics declines. While when I concentrate on Physics, my Chemistry declines. (This always happens to me) And the reason is that I’ve been relying on myself too much. I really wished I could slack off and cool down for a while, but there’s simply no time, which leaves me no choice. Really, private victories lead to public victories. Yeah, June holidays aren’t there for nothing right? I still have two weeks to get everything in other. Just two weeks.

The advancing time.

Forgive everything. Forget everything. For time is advancing whether we like it or not, and there’s definitely no time to mangle over all these time-wasting problems. I often asked, how are all these crazy problems going to be solved, there’s so much that I don’t even want to think about them. It would take a miracle, no, more than that. ”Remember all the miracles, there shall be another.” That’s it, I’m putting everything on this one. Easier said than done. But it has to be done.